This is more than just a saying on my website. And to be quite honest it’s not even for my fans…sorry lol…it’s a reminder for me. It’s encouragement… there to remind me every time I look at my website, business card, blog, video, or whatever… of why I do what I do.
All my life I’ve loved the stage. Started performing at the age of 5. I was in dance recitals, school plays, church performances, and more… and I’ve never had stage fright or been intimidated by the crowd. Quite the opposite actually. I thrived on the energy from the audience, any nervousness or butterflies I felt before a performance only fueled my energy when I hit the stage. I loved it! And I knew from a young age that I wanted a career on the stage. Didn’t know how or what I wanted to do – dance, sing, act – but I knew I had to be there…on the stage.
Then when I was 12 I saw my first musical theatre production…and OMG! It was as if no one else was in the room and something deep inside me clawed and ached to be on that stage. Give me a costume! Give me a script! I’m supposed to be up there! It was the first time I saw all three of my talents working together… at the same time! Where did this musical theatre idea come from? Why was this my first time hearing about it? How can I get up there with them?
So I did my research of this “musical theatre” phenomenon, and made a decision… I was going to move to NYC right out of high school and make my dreams become a reality! I was going to be a Broadway STAR!
But the older I got, and the more I learned about it…the politics of the theatre… the competition of the industry. The insecurities set in. I’m the tallest girl in my 7th grade class how can I possibly play a leading lady if she can’t be taller than 5’7? I was disqualified at the age of 10 if that’s the case! I’m black… what do you mean I can’t play Cinderella (this is before Brandy did) because I don’t have blonde hair and blue eyes? What do you mean I can’t play a leading role unless it’s in an African American based play? You mean I can’t be Annie? I can’t play in Phantom of the Opera? This is ludicrous! I have acne…well I didn’t know that this really isn’t a big deal in theatre until I was much older but still… you mean these little bumps on my face that can clear up with some ointment are going to stop me from being on the stage? The list goes on and on… so eventually my will power to pursue a life in the theatre industry dwindled. But my desire and passion for the stage never died.
So all through my teen and young adult years, I fought a constant battle. Between my insecurities who fed into the politics of the industry and my heart that knew that I was meant to be a performer. So every now and then I’d audition for a role in the school or community theatre productions…and wouldn’t you know it… I made it every time. And not only did I make it…I got lead roles!
So then what was the problem?
“I” was the problem. I was still at war… my brain vs. my heart. Even though people believed in my dreams and talents, I wasn’t as convinced. I had too many things working against me to make it to the big time; I might as well give up on that ‘pipe’ dream, and just settle into a mediocre career, have me some kids, live a quiet little life…yada…yada…yada…and a partridge in a pear tree. Know the problem with that idea?
The heart wants what the heart wants…and when it doesn’t get what it wants it replaces that want with a worse feeling called regret.
So where am I now?
My plans have changed just a smidge… I’m not moving to NYC…I’ve evolved into writing, directing, and producing musical theatre shows, so now I can be on the stage and behind the scenes. So I’m pursuing all of my artistry with full force! Cancelling any future regret that I may invoke into my heart; by putting aside any and all things that have stopped me before and pursuing my dreams because I know they are meant for me to achieve.
How am I doing that?
Glad you asked. There are several scriptures that back up the notion of pursuing your dreams and I actually received confirmation in the sermon I heard at church yesterday – “2014: Year of Fulfillment.” My Pastor gave us “steps” which directly align with what I’ve been doing anyways. But here they are:
1. Be clear about what you want.
At the end of it all, what do you want? Where are your dreams taking to you? What standard of living? Location? State of fulfillment? Be clear on what your result is.
2. Be clear about what your dreams are.
We all have dreams, but we need to define those that you are going to pursue so that you don’t end up off track. Write the vision and make it plain…can’t keep changing your mind, “today I want to do this, tomorrow I want to do that.” Have a clear and concise vision about what you want to do.
3. Be clear that your dreams bring glory to GOD and positively impact others.
4. Commit the “contract.”
If you do your part, God will do His. But you’ve got to give God something to work with. You have to put in the work, be obedient to His will– you can’t expect God to bless if you’re involved in ‘mess’ while pursuing your dream- and stick with it! You can’t be 100% today and 20% tomorrow…dive in head first. You take one step and watch God take two!
I told you that going after your dreams is in the Bible right… let me show you.
• Proverbs 16:3 – “Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.”
• Psalms 37:4-“Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.”
• Proverbs 18:16- “A man’s gift maketh room for him, and bringeth him before great men.”
• Jeremiah 29:11-“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”
Your heart knows the life it wants…the one you truly deserve. I know mine does. Quit stopping yourself. Cancel every negative thought, sin, and insecurity that holds you back. The Bible tells us in Hebrews 12:1 to “lay aside every weight and sin which easily distracts us, and let us run the race that lies before us.”
Pursue God. Pursue the real you. Pursue Life.